Wednesday, January 2, 2008
This afternoon, I realised that i am so poor (though i think i am poor all along but i feel the impact when i need to pay for school fees) I din plan for this year becos i had been celebrating Christmas like the China pp celebrating Chinese New Year - 15 days of endless partying. The total damage is a big "OUCH" and I totally forgot about my Exam fee of $2084.
I received the letter to inform me regarding the payment yesterday night and i told my mum this morning that i need to borrow 2K from her. She told me "I dun have" and she kept quiet. As an obstinate Aquarius, when the person doesnt wanna help me when i asked her/him the first time, i wun bother to ask them the second time. So i walked away and locked myself in the room to think of solutions.
Solutions:
1) borrow from bank
2) borrow from friends
3) stop school
4) jump down from the coolest spot (entrance) in SIM and haunt the school for life
I came to a conclusion that the first option - borrow from bank rocks so i changed and flew down to Maybank which is super near my house to enquire. The lackey was a uglified snobbish arse. He knew that i am a pauper (prolly frolm my shuai1 face) and he din wanna press the button for my number.. when there was no one in the queue. I hate Maybank. So i chiong to SIM admin office to get the form for NTUC income bank loan. The rate is better 5.25% instead of 5.5% by Maybank.
However, borrowing 2K from bank sounds a bit cock afterall. I was v touched when S****n offered to loan me money. S***n wanted to lend me money too!! *Names to be protected to prevent robbers. Anyway, I am not alone.. *SOB* Well, of course i hope i dun have to borrow from them lar.. Quite paisey.. But seems like that is the last resort~
PAPAROACH - LAST RESORT
Cut my life into pieces I've reached my last resort, suffocation, no breathing Don't give a fuck if I cut my arms bleeding Would it be wrong, would it be right If I took my life tonight, chance are that I might Mutilation out of sight and I'm contemplating suicide Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine Nothing's alright, nothing is fine I'm running and I'm crying I never realized I was spread too thin Till it was too late and I was empty within Hungry, feeding on chaos and living in sin Downward spiral, where do I begin It all started when I lost my mother No love for myself and no love for another Searching to find a love upon a higher level Finding nothing but questions and devils Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine Nothing's alright, nothing is fine I'm running and I'm crying I can't go on living this way
I received the letter to inform me regarding the payment yesterday night and i told my mum this morning that i need to borrow 2K from her. She told me "I dun have" and she kept quiet. As an obstinate Aquarius, when the person doesnt wanna help me when i asked her/him the first time, i wun bother to ask them the second time. So i walked away and locked myself in the room to think of solutions.
Solutions:
1) borrow from bank
2) borrow from friends
3) stop school
4) jump down from the coolest spot (entrance) in SIM and haunt the school for life
I came to a conclusion that the first option - borrow from bank rocks so i changed and flew down to Maybank which is super near my house to enquire. The lackey was a uglified snobbish arse. He knew that i am a pauper (prolly frolm my shuai1 face) and he din wanna press the button for my number.. when there was no one in the queue. I hate Maybank. So i chiong to SIM admin office to get the form for NTUC income bank loan. The rate is better 5.25% instead of 5.5% by Maybank.
However, borrowing 2K from bank sounds a bit cock afterall. I was v touched when S****n offered to loan me money. S***n wanted to lend me money too!! *Names to be protected to prevent robbers. Anyway, I am not alone.. *SOB* Well, of course i hope i dun have to borrow from them lar.. Quite paisey.. But seems like that is the last resort~
PAPAROACH - LAST RESORT
Cut my life into pieces I've reached my last resort, suffocation, no breathing Don't give a fuck if I cut my arms bleeding Would it be wrong, would it be right If I took my life tonight, chance are that I might Mutilation out of sight and I'm contemplating suicide Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine Nothing's alright, nothing is fine I'm running and I'm crying I never realized I was spread too thin Till it was too late and I was empty within Hungry, feeding on chaos and living in sin Downward spiral, where do I begin It all started when I lost my mother No love for myself and no love for another Searching to find a love upon a higher level Finding nothing but questions and devils Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine Nothing's alright, nothing is fine I'm running and I'm crying I can't go on living this way
what we could have been, 1/02/2008 08:43:00 PM.
